skinny_kids

The Diet!

Sunday: 12.6- 500 calories
Monday: 12.7- 500 calories
12.8: 300 calories
12.9: 400 calories
12.10: 100 calories
12.11: 200 calories
12.12: 300 calories
12.13: 400 calories
12.14: 500 calories
12.15: 150 calories
12.16: 200 calories
12.17: 400 calories
12.18: 350 calories
12.19: 250 calories
12/20: 200 calories
12/21: Fast
11/12: 200 calories
11/13: 100 calories
11/14: Fast
11/15: 300 calories
11/16: 250 calories
11/17: 200 calories
11/18: 150 calories
11/19: 100 calories
11/20: 50 calories
11/21: 100 calories
11/22: 200 calories
11/23: 200 calories
11/24: 300 calories
11/25: 800 calories
11/26: Fast
11/27: 250 calories
11/28: 350 calories
11/29: 450 calories
11/30: Fast
12/01: 500 calories
12/02: 450 calories
12/03: 400 calories
12/04: 350 calories
12/05: 300 calories
12/06: 250 calories
12/07: 200 calories
12/08: 200 calories
12/09: 250 calories
12/10: 200 calories
12/11: 300 calories
12/12: 200 calories
12/13: 150 calories
12/14: Fast

The Truth about being invisible

Another poem
to explain the unexplainable
day after day we question who we are
why do I even bother, why am i even here
another tear for me to feel
another broken dream
another broken mirror
swallowed by blackness again
a dark hole
consumes me once more.
i don't have you
and I never did.
if only i could have you.
but
we know that i am invisible.
Dawn comes
and still I'm awake
thinly swallowing the day.
We wait
Silently
on the streets of ice
sheets of white dust
of imaginary bodies.
time will pass and we will
never see beauty in front of us.

So we're out on spring break but I'm on my period. Not so fun. I'm just going to watch some films and read some books. Maybe after I take a shower I'll feel more energetic.

I just made a facebook account, you guys can check it out. They have pretty cool feminist groups. http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1152700791

This Daylight savings deal is killing my days, it goes by so fast! I need a schedule. But as fat as today goes, I'll be very productive and do something creative.

I feel disgusting...they called me into their room and gave me a taco. Shit, I didnt even wanna eat it I FORCED myself to eat this shit. Why can't they just leave me alone. I wish i could say Yes! I have a fucking eating disorder I cant eat like you!

I have a class presentation tomorrow, gawd I normally have an anxiety attack in front of everyone and freak out.... I'll try to stay clam and do good. Wish me luck please. I'm going to fast that way I'll feel like I'm in control of things and not my body. Mind over matter right?

Goodnight lovely girls.

I'm going to go workout. Right now, I am freaking out and need to clean my body from this fat beast
Cleaning the house and half an hour of crunches.
What kind of exercise do you do, when you can't get to a gym?

I'm officialy 103 lbs, I need to get to 100 by next week sooo...
my plan is nothing but veggies and no eating past 6:00pm.
Whats everyone's goal for this week?

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I am ready to kick all this fat in my arms to the fucking curve!

I was sitting on my parents bed yesterday playing with some tape thing whining about how much my life sucks and all. .. and then my mom goes "you need to stop dieting, I'm sick of you not eating. I bet youll lose more weight if you eat normal and start eating again like you use to." Pfft! ha ha ha if she only knew I've alrerady lost a total of 22 pounds. I didnt say anything though, I just changed the subject by saying "vegetarians dont have many options, theres soy vegetables and more vegetables."

Theyre noticing a change, my brother was calling me a stick today.
Although it made me feel good, i felt bad for not hiding it well I dont want any drama. I'm going to wear baggy clothes that make me look fat around the house and ill wear sweaters everyday. I don't want anyone to panic or start yapppin at meh. lol

okay so I finished my fast, and I consumed 312 calories today.
I need to go burn the extra 12 with some cardio and ill be fine. Tomorrow will be better. How was everyone's day?

( What I ate: )

okay so It's officially over, please help me not screw up.
I feel a little anxious, I just drank a huge cup of coffee. Well I'm not going to eat. I love feeling empty and clean and if I eat Ill only feel like a failure. Just two more days, i might even get to my goal weight.
That's what I want, that is my ultimate goal.

( I dont look like this yet )

The first day of me and notthereyets fast is almost over.
I feel pretty accomplished, and like I have control again.
I'll post the weight lost by tomorrow. My parents wont be home so I can live off coffee if i want. I'm ready for wednesday.

Just ate a reeses cup after 7pm :(
fucking fat ass that why you dont get anywhere. Because you stick everything down your throat. 400 situps tonight you fat bitch. You dissapoint me. This halloween candy will not ruin this for me, next time I'm near ill i wil rip it apart and throw it all out. I failed again, when will i do something right?

I love halloween, it was so much fun, and i havent eaten all day!

( Halloween pictures XD )

haunted house!

I start my two week fast today With some coffee.
I need to destroy the fat beast I created.

Goodluck to everyone today.

I start my two week fast today With some coffee.
I need to destroy the fat beast I created.

Goodluck to everyone today.

689 calories FUCK!
fucking binge!

doesnt it frustrate you not to be normal? not to be able to eat like a normal person because everything that goes into your mouth will turn into fat.